[narrator] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
Derek's married.
- Why are you here? - You had a Iife in Manhattan.
Had.
It was a business decision. Not personaI.
It is personaI to me.
I'II onIy be your boss for a few days.
- I have a girIfriend. - [Izzie] OIivia.
You and AIex?
- You gave me syphiIis! - George!
- It's best to make a cIean break. - Oh, you're ending this.
I'm pregnant.
Have you even toId Burke about the baby?
I've had a thing for my roommate since day one. And I just can't teII her.
My husband didn't cheat on me. I cheated on him.
- I was drowning and you saved me. - It's not enough.
[Meredith] I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you,
would say, ''Say when. ''
It's not us. It's them.
Them and their stupid boy penises.
They didn't teII me they had a wife.
They gave absoIuteIy no warning that they were going to break up with you.
It's not that Burke broke up with me. It's how he broke up with me.
Like it was business. Like a business... Like he's the boss of me.
- He is the boss of you. - And what's worse is that I care.
I'm going to throw up again.
My aunt would say, ''Say when, '' and of course we never did.
No. Wait.
FaIse aIarm.
- Look, the probIem is estrogen. - No, the probIem is tequiIa.
I used to be aII business, then he gets me pregnant.
- With the stupid boy penis. - Now I'm having hormone surges.
He ruined me. I'm ruined.
He turned me into this fat, stupid, pregnant girI,
who cares.
- Estrogen. - Penises.
- Penises, Izzie! - Estrogen, George.
OK. What did I miss?
[Izzie] Came home to fuII vomit drama. She dumped Derek. And her.
- She's been sIeeping with Burke. - I know.
We don't say ''when'' because there's something about the possibility of more.
So you reaIIy broke up with Shepherd?
I feeI empty.
Two hours of vomiting wiII do that to you.
More tequila. More love. More anything. More is better.
No, I feeI empty.
You're Iucky. I feeI pissed off.
[alarm beeps]
Stop.
- What? - You're staIking me. Stop it.
Did we not communicate Iast night?
- Yes. - Did you hear what I said?
Your wife screwed your best friend.
Then from that point on, she no Ionger existed to me.
- You had maritaI amnesia. - I bared my souI to you Iast night.
- It's not enough. - Why?
When you waited two months to teII me and I had to find out by her showing up,
aII Ieggy and fabuIous, and teIIing me herseIf, you puIIed the pIug.
I'm a sink with an open drain. Anything you say runs right out.
There is no enough.
- She couId've picked a better metaphor. - Give her a break. She has a hangover.
- Dr. Shepherd. - Dr. Burke.
We have an organ donor coming in from WiIkeson GeneraI.
- We're doing a harvest. - CommendabIe, but...
- In OR One at four. - I'm in OR One at four.
Yours is non-criticaI.
- You can't bump me. - As chief, I can.
- Interim. Bump somebody eIse. - You're in the OR we need.
- Why don't they harvest at WiIkeson? - SmaII faciIity in the boonies.
We have the Iocation, the airport nearby and the staff.
Your surgery is rescheduIed.
[beII pings]
- [PA] Cardiologist to the cath lab. - ''Mine's bigger than yours.''
- Whip it out. I'II measure. - Shut up, AIex.
MaIe, 55, victim of a head-on coIIision. GCS is three. Depressed skuII fracture.
MuItipIe internaI injuries. ACLS protocoI started, but his veins bIew.
We've pushed meds down the tube. PEA on arrivaI.
- How Iong? - We've been doing CPR for 20 minutes.
It took Fire 20 minutes to get him out. He's pretty much gone.
He's not gone untiI we say he's gone.
O'MaIIey, get him into a bay and save him.
- But he's dead. - Did you not hear me?
He's not dead untiI we say he's dead. You know what to do, so do it.
Grey? You on this too. Move.
We've got three more victims from the other car coming in!
- [Meredith] Come on. - But he's dead.
[sighs]
OIivia.
- PuIseIess V-tach. - Line's in.
- OK! Charge to 200. - [high-pitched humming]
- 200. - CIear.
- [thud] - [continuous beep]
Push one of epi. Let's go again. Charge to 300.
SeriousIy?
I think that's what Dr. BaiIey wants you to do, George.
You...
Dr. O'MaIIey.
It's what she wants, Dr. O'MaIIey.
OK then. Let's charge to 300.
- 300. - CIear.
[man] MaIe, 46, unrestrained driver of the car that jumped Ianes.
BP 80 over paIp. Tachycardic. Last puIse 1 :38.
Got two Iiters LR running wide open. AbdominaI tenderness.
- [BaiIey] Any history? - He's got a bad Iiver.
- He's on the transpIant Iist. - Abdomen's rigid. Hands off!
We need to page Burke and Domner. Who wants it?
- [aII] I do! - I do.
- Too Iate. Stevens, take it. - Yes.
Karev! Take the boy. Yang, you take the mom.
I want to be Iooking at their fiIms in 1 5 minutes.
- We've got one more for you. - What? In there? Oh, OK.
What is it?
- That guy. - He was in the accident?
No. BoweI obstruction. He won't say what he ingested. FiIms suggest he's packing.
Can't peopIe figure out a better way to move drugs?
Grey!
Pericardiocentesis. Good. Any response?
- OK, aII right, you guys can... - ShouId I caII it?
- What wouId you do next, O'MaIIey? - I wouId caII it.
To save him.
Oh... Uh...
- A pericardiaI window. - ExceIIent. Do it.
Grey, you're done here. I got a boweI obstruction for you.
- Fun. - At Ieast your patient's stiII aIive.
What next, doctor?
[# Psaap: Crazy in the Rocket]
- [Derek] Stop it! - [Richard] OK. Stop. OK? That's it.
- That is not it. - Come on, stop it. That's it.
- It's not. HoId stiII. - How can I with you poking me?
I have to poke you to discharge you.
What makes you think he wants to be discharged?
Derek, don't you know that this hospitaI wiII crumbIe unIess Richard's here?
AdeIe. You're meant to be in the Virgin IsIands.
You are in five kinds of troubIe, mister man.
You had brain surgery and didn't teII me?
- It was a smaII procedure. - It was brain surgery.
- Didn't want to ruin your vacation. - You don't know what one is.
How wouId you know how to ruin it?
WeII, anyway...
How did you find...
- You caIIed my wife? - You caIIed mine.
Having someone at home with you is the onIy way I'm Ietting you out today.
- Fine. - I thought I saw a great-Iooking woman.
[AdeIe] Addison! Yes, see?
Hi.
I toId Richard, I knew you and Derek wouId get back together.
- I'm here on a case. - Addison and I are over, AdeIe.
- It's not Iike we're divorced. - PracticaIIy.
- You've had counseIing? - We had aduItery. That was enough.
I'II caII you Iater, OK?
You shouId give her a chance, Derek.
It's good to see you. Keep him in Iine.
[woman on PA]
- My mom's OK, right? - Yeah, yeah, I think so.
They'd been fighting at breakfast.
Dad... It's ugIy when it gets Iike that.
He ran three stop Iights before we even got on the freeway.
- My husband Bob is a good driver. - Some guy in a pickup cuts us off.
Safe. I think he saw something in the middIe of the road and...
- My dad just Iost it. - ...and swerved to avoid it.
- Started chasing the guy. - The crash just came out of nowhere.
BIasting through traffic.
We'd been having a reaIIy nice morning.
One minute everything's fine and the next...
- Screaming at him. - I saw his face before we hit.
Then we're upside down across the freeway.
Do the surgeons know Bob has a bad Iiver?
- They know. - How's Scotty?
Your son's next door getting X-rayed.
- My dad, he... - He's in surgery. It's pretty serious.
Yeah? WeII.
I guess the son of a bitch got what he deserved.
[nurse] Here you go.
What makes peopIe think they don't need seatbeIts?
[Burke] My end is done.
[Domner] WeII, the boweI's a mess, but it's repairabIe.
It's a Iot of work, but I don't see the point with this Iiver.
[nurse] Forceps.
- What do you see, Dr. Stevens? - Deep Iaceration, bIeeding.
- [Burke] What eIse? - It's hard and paIe. Cirrhotic.
- [Izzie] He's on the transpIant Iist. - Does he have famiIy here?
A wife and son.
I'm just going to roII you over. GentIy.
Oh. This Iooks pretty bad. How'd you get this?
WeII, we hit so hard...
I don't think it's from the coIIision. It Iooks a coupIe of weeks oId.
Where are you?
I can see his heart. His heart that's not beating.
OK, open the pericardium and aspirate.
If the heart's stiII not beating, cIose and caII it.
What? You think we're defiIing this man's body?
WeII, we're certainIy doing more than...
Than what?
If they're dead or dying when they come in you hump and hump hard. Why?
- For the experience. - No. What eIse? There's something more.
You think on that. It'II come to you.
Mr. HubbIe, you might make things a IittIe easier on yourseIf
if you wouId just teII us what you've ingested.
We'II know anyway, once we see your fiIms.
You have the most beautifuI features. They're deIicate. AImost porceIain.
Mr. HubbIe, whatever you've ingested couId kiII you.
Are you sure you don't want to teII me what's got you bIocked up inside?
- It might offend you. - Is it drugs?
- It's not drugs. - Mr. HubbIe...
I promise. It's not drugs.
OK. WeII, good. I'm gIad it's not drugs.
It's drugs. Looks Iike at Ieast ten baIIoons in his boweI.
My guess, cocaine.
[AIex] Scott Seibert, 1 8. No fractures or internaI bIeeding. Got pretty Iucky.
- Recommendation? - Overnight for observation.
- Damn! - Lea Seibert, 43.
MuItipIe heaIed fractures on cIavicIe and humerus. Third and fourth rib.
She's either a buII rider or she's abused.
Kid said the accident was road rage.
His oId man got cut off in traffic.
That's not the story I got.
She has a Iarge yeIIowing bruise over her right kidney, tender to paIpation.
Said she got it from a faII Iast week. She's bIeeding.
Perinephric hematoma. What do you do?
It shouId take care of itseIf. We'II watch it.
She needs bed rest. And a shrink.
- It's drugs. - Stupid. Stupid, stupid.
One bursts and he's dead in five minutes.
- OK, what do we do? - [Meredith] Run his boweI?
And what does that mean? Yang?
Running the boweI entaiIs removing aII 36 feet of the intestine
from the body cavity, searching for the baIIoons then cutting them out.
Grey, book an OR. Yang, Karev, you're in. I need aII the hands I can get.
You sure they're baIIoons?
You have reason to beIieve they're not?
This one here's got a face.
[Meredith] So does that one.
They aII do.
I'II be damned. They're Judys.
Judys?
He's swaIIowed the heads of ten Judy doIIs.
[Meredith] Eugh.
My mother used to buy me Judy doIIs.
Manhattan Judy, Surfer Judy, Disco Judy.
- I wanted one. - I dissected them.
Cut off their arms and shaved their heads.
Sounds Iike a sick and twisted story.
They're sexist, distorted deviI toys that create unreaIistic expectations
catering to the porn-driven minds of men.
You swaIIow a bitter piII this morning, Yang? They're doIIs.
Grey, caII for a Psych consuIt, then see if he has famiIy.
- Do I stiII book the OR? - BIocked boweIs become necrotic boweIs.
Check with Dr. Burke. See if we can bump someone.
Those Judys got to come out today.
- Hanging another B neg. - [Domner] Using a Iot of bIood.
- [nurse] Noted. - What's the word from UNOS?
He's on the Iist, but they don't have a Iiver.
The Iist won't heIp him now. This Iiver won't stop bIeeding.
It won't support his recovery.
[Izzie] What about the donor that's coming in?
That Iiver's aIready been committed. His onIy hope is a famiIy donor.
Maybe we shouId caII it. No use tying up an OR if it's postponing the inevitabIe.
How much work do you have to compIete, Dr. Domner?
- Five, maybe six hours. - That's how Iong we have to find one.
You're the chief.
[cIicking]
- Any famiIy members waiting? - Trying to reach them.
Good. I mean, not good that we haven't reached them.
- It's just good I don't have to... - It's aIways hard.
Yeah.
I'm sorry about AIex.
That's fine. It's good, you know.
No need to taIk about it.
You do understand that I had sex with him before you. Not during.
Because when you and I were having sex...
- I understand. - Just wanted to cIear the air.
It's cIear.
- PerfectIy cIear. OK. - OK.
- And about the syphiIis... - We don't have to taIk about this.
I mean, I didn't know I had it. I shouId have. I'm a nurse.
I mean, there was the sore and I was aII itchy.
OK. You know, I uh... got it.
You know, things happen.
They reaIIy do. Things you wish you couId change.
- Yeah. - [pager beeps]
It's the chief. I got to take this.
Sure. George?
- You have to caII it. - CaII it?
- Him. - Oh. Um...
Time of death 1 :48.
[rattIing]
[woman on PA]
I got it.
[eIevator beII]
This guy came in this morning with ten Judy doII heads in his abdomen.
Is that some kind of sick or what?
I mean, when you think about it, those things can't be that easy to swaIIow.
They stiII got their hair on them. That's some bad spaghetti.
Dude's crapping toys.
[sighs]
You know, when you're IittIe, you can hide.
Ignore the shouting, the screaming.
Pretend Iike you're somepIace eIse.
Then when you get oIder,... bigger,...
you feeI Iike you shouId be doing something.
Something to stop it. You know, to protect her.
And when you can't, you don't know who to be angrier at,
your oId man or yourseIf.
UsuaIIy it's yourseIf.
[pounding stops]
- Did she teII you? - She didn't have to.
It's aII over her fiIms.
He's not beating you, is he?
- No. Just her. - [elevator bell]
So what do you do? About the anger?
Me? I think about the guy who eats doII heads.
He's got probIems.
Hey. I've been Iooking for you guys.
It's my father.
Bob Iiked his beers. His Iiver started to faiI a coupIe of years ago.
He quit drinking and we put him on the transpIant Iist,
- but his bIood type... - B negative.
There just aren't that many avaiIabIe.
They suggested a famiIy member.
Any Iuck?
My son.
They say Scotty's a good match. He's 1 8...
FamiIy members shouIdn't do it out of obIigation. It's risky.
Scotty's had counseIing.
You know, they just don't Iet you do it.
He hasn't made his mind up yet, you know.
We actuaIIy have a date set for the surgery.
It's just... I just don't... I don't want to pressure him.
WeII, then you shouIdn't.
Oh, God... God, I don't want to Iose Bob.
We'II give your son as much time as we can to make a decision.
[Lea sobs]
[Lea sniffIes]
[woman on PA]
- WouId you care to expIain? - Seibert is a wife beater.
- Her fiIms show abuse. - I didn't know that.
MuItipIe fractures. She has a kidney bIeed from a beating Iast week.
PIus, it was his road rage that caused the accident.
- The guy in the other car died. - And that means what?
No heroic measures? We Ieave him on the tabIe?
- If it were up to me... - Think Iike a surgeon.
We have a dying patient and a Iiver match.
- This is more compIicated. - For sociaI workers, yes.
For the famiIy. Not for you.
It isn't up to you.
Yeah, you've made that perfectIy cIear.
- I'm gIad we have an understanding. - I'm sure you are.
- The donor from WiIkeson? - ShouId be here at three.
Harvest team's on their way in.
I need to contact the transpIant center about Seibert getting his son's Iiver.
Dr. Burke? Dr. BaiIey needs an OR and they're aII booked.
- For? - An emergent boweI obstruction.
- Drugs? - Ten Judy doII heads.
- SeriousIy? - Yes.
I can see their IittIe faces. [high-pitched] ''HeIp. Let me out.''
Bump Warner's hernia in one, but don't teII him what we're removing.
Thank you.
If he can't be here obsessing, he wants stuff to obsess with at home.
I'II be done and out of your way in a moment.
Intern time cards. Sign.
It's aIways something, isn't it?
Some emergency surgery, some annoying administrative probIem.
Being chief is a Iot Iike being an intern, the work never stops.
When I found out Richard had a tumor, you know what I feIt?
ReIieved. I was hoping he wouId finaIIy be forced to retire.
Ah.
That has your attention, doesn't it?
How we both wouId Iike for that to happen.
I couId finaIIy book a vacation for two. [chuckIes]
You know, you're perfect for this job, Preston.
Unattached. Obsessive.
This hospitaI, this job, it's enough for you, isn't it?
[thunder rumbIes]
It has to be today?
Thanks. He won't make it off the tabIe with his own Iiver. He's bIeeding a Iot.
When you get counseIing, they teII you not to force it.
A decision, you know.
One day, one moment, you'II just know the right thing to do.
This shouId be easy, right? He's my father.
WeII, it's a tough operation. It'II be a big change in your Iife.
The upside is the Iiver's the onIy organ that regenerates.
They'II onIy take haIf of yours. It'II be back to normaI in two months.
- You won't be running marathons, but... - Dr. Stevens, can I see you a moment?
- What is your probIem? - You're doing a saIes pitch.
The recipient is your patient. You shouIdn't be taIking to the donor.
The recipient is his father who he's going to Iose.
And he understands that, aII right? BeIieve me. He understands that.
You have no idea what's going on in that kid's head.
None.
- CaII three times a day. - Do not caII.
- If my wife doesn't put you through... - I won't put you through.
- ...keep caIIing. - Yes, sir.
He's not taIking. It couId be pica. DoubtfuI for a man his age.
Maybe an OedipaI compIex or idoIization of the doIIs as partners.
Or it couId be that he simpIy enjoys it.
I've seen strange things in strange pIaces, but how does he enjoy this?
He'd enjoy them when they came out.
I didn't need to hear that.
Dr. Grey? May I speak with you for a moment?
Don't Iook at me for heIp.
I assume he toId you why he Ieft me?
Dr. Shepherd, with aII due respect, this has nothing to do with me.
ReaIIy? So you didn't take him back?
Good girI.
In future, I'd appreciate it if we kept our reIationship strictIy professionaI.
Meredith?
Sometimes peopIe do desperate things to get someone's attention.
There are two sides to every story.
[Cristina] He's an aIcohoIic wife beater. ShouIdn't be a question.
If you didn't save him, wouIdn't it be Iike murder?
Like when he crashed into George's DOA? He's the kiIIer, not the son.
- [Iaughs] That is sick. - Who wouId do that?
[Cristina] Oh.
Look! See Judy fIy.
- Hey, George? - Hey.
What?
George. She was trying to make up with you. You shouId go eat with her.
No. No, I shouIdn't.
She Iikes you. Don't Iet the syph get in the way.
- It's not the syph. - So the syph.
- It is not the syph. - Then what is it?
Oh.
What?
What is it?
- [Meredith] Say. - There's another girI.
- Izzie! - You have another girI?
- [Izzie] He hasn't toId her yet. - It's not high schooI.
- George has a IittIe crush. - I do not.
It is a thing. A thing that is very personaI.
One day I'd Iike to buiId on this thing with this other girI... woman.
She's aII woman.
- What are you doing? - I was pIaying with...
No, George, with OIivia. What are you doing with OIivia?
- Nothing. - She thinks you're avaiIabIe.
She thinks she has a chance.
There is nothing worse in the worId
than thinking you have a chance when you reaIIy don't.
Meredith is right. TeII her there's someone eIse. TeII her why.
At Ieast give her the chance to have some feeIings about it for God's sake!
- Why are you yeIIing at me? - Because of the estrogen, George!
So, new subject.
- It's a mess. - No, it isn't.
I think I know a mess when I see a mess.
You got the harvest tying up OR One, Seibert tying up OR Two...
It's simpIy a bit crowded.
Your ''crowded'' is my ''seriousIy overbooked.''
And in my book, seriousIy overbooked is a mess.
Is there any word on the Seibert Iiver?
- How much work do they have Ieft? - CoupIe of hours.
- TeII them I'II be in to see them. - You bumped me for a boweI obstruction?
Uneasy Iies the head that wears the chief's cap.
[woman on PA] Code white, code white...
Was it an act of desperation?
- Not at aII. - Something to attract attention?
Of course not.
I'm just trying to understand here, Mr. HubbIe. Why ten doII heads?
WeII, because eIeven wouId have been too much.
[doctor] What's up, Dick?
[Izzie] I think it has something to do with his mother.
Maybe she wanted a girI and gave him Judy doIIs as presents.
I got another one.
[groans]
[BaiIey] Doyen cIamps to Yang. Grey, push the head to the incision.
[AIex] Mother Iooked Iike Judy and he's into voodoo.
Instead of sticking pins in...
[BaiIey] Yep. Ah.
BIack Judy.
Before they gave her Iong hair. Back when she had the Afro.
She came with go-go boots and a Ieather jacket.
- Shame. It's a reaI coIIector's item. - [AIex] CoIIectibIe doIIs. New twist.
[Cristina] SeriousIy? You can identify these doIIs by their heads?
You got a probIem with that, Yang? I Iike Judy doIIs. I own Judy doIIs.
The onIy probIem I have with Judy doIIs is they're in the boweI of this man.
BaiIey? I need an intern in the E.R. to meet the harvest donor.
- O'MaIIey. - See you, trooper.
- [Burke] You good here? - [BaiIey] CoupIe more to go.
Karev, Stevens, Yang, scrub out.
We need to get an answer from Seibert's son.
Ah, yes. Mod Judy.
She came with a yeIIow Vespa.
- Wait. You know what's strange? - We haven't had enough strange?
She Iooks a IittIe Iike you.
[nurse] This is the donor from WiIkeson.
Put her in here untiI the harvest team comes down. Thanks.
WeII, this... this one's heart is stiII beating.
I think BaiIey wouId want me to...
[OIivia] We reached the famiIy of the dead motorist. Live in PortIand.
ShouId be here in a few hours. Want me to page you?
- Yeah. Do they know? - OnIy that we were working on him.
I think it's aIways better to hear bad news first hand.
I know I'd Iike to taIk to the doctor who caIIed it.
Get some answers.
So that I couId get on with my Iife.
[George groans]
George?
Did you... Did you see that?
She's decerebrate. Her brain's... Her brain stem's stiII aIive.
- OK. We'II take it from here. Thanks. - Did you Iook at this?
She's decerebrate. OK.
Yeah, she can't reaIIy be decIared brain dead...
They probabIy just missed it. The cortex is dead, the brain stem wiII foIIow.
Death is imminent. We just have to wait.
- But don't you think... - She'II be dead when we get to the OR.
But she's aIive now.
It smeIIs Iike a hospitaI in here.
What are we doing with this guy? Is this an exercise?
- I don't need the practice. - TranspIant committee gave the OK.
We need an answer from the son.
He's using bIood Iike there's no tomorrow. LiteraIIy.
- How much work is stiII Ieft? - An hour and a haIf.
But, without a Iiver, I don't think this guy's going to Iast that Iong.
I need to speak to Scotty. I can taIk to him. I need to taIk to him.
I think they want him to make the decision on his own.
You think I'm sick for wanting to save my husband, don't you?
I think you're feeIing very emotionaI.
And when we're feeIing emotionaI,
sometimes it's hard to keep a IeveI head and to consider aII the facts.
Your husband kiIIed a man on the highway today.
He aImost kiIIed you and your son. Those are the facts.
Have you ever been in Iove, doctor?
Have you?
Love has its Iimits.
- Dr. Shepherd. - Dr. O'MaIIey.
I was just in ICU with the harvest donor.
Dr. BaiIey has us do procedures and exams on patients even if they're dead.
- What did you find? - She's decerebrate.
The donor. Her brain stem's stiII aIive.
Excuse me. Derek Shepherd, head of neurosurgery.
Do you mind if I take a Iook?
OK. Yeah, she's stiII posturing.
We have every intention of waiting untiI she's dead.
She's in an irreversibIe coma. Hines, at WiIkeson, ran the protocoI.
Missed decerebration. What eIse did they miss?
She has a tumor on her uh... brain stem, right?
I don't see an MRI. Did you do an EEG to confirm brain death?
- Yeah. According to Hines. - I don't know Hines.
Six patients in three states are waiting for organs.
They'd be happy to know the organs were from somebody who is brain dead.
No one wiII touch her whiIe she's aIive. To impIy otherwise...
Is there a probIem here?
This donor is stiII decerebrate. I want to do an EEG and an MRI.
- [doctor] An expensive waste of time. - I insist on it.
- You insist on it? - I do.
If my head of neurosurgery says he needs an EEG and an MRI,
he needs an EEG and an MRI.
We have six patients waiting.
That is not my caII, Dr. Orsen. Who gets the organs is up to UNOS.
Who donates them is up to the famiIies.
HeII, I got a guy waiting for a Iiver that may not deserve to be saved.
Again, that's not my caII. Do you want to know what my caII is?
Everything eIse.
- The patient is yours, Dr. Shepherd. - Thank you, Dr. Burke.
Dr. O'MaIIey, want to assist with this MRI?
Can you carry this for me?
[Derek] First thing we'II do is the EEG. George, you with me?
[Scott] What if he goes back to hitting her?
You can't make that caII.
But you can't make the decision out of anger.
- AIex! - So what do you do with it?
- What did you do with yours? - AIex! Hey!
- You shouIdn't be out here. - Can you just back off? PIease.
My anger had a Iife of its own.
I became a wrestIer and the next time he Iaid a hand on my mother,
I beat the Iiving crap out of him.
When he got out of the hospitaI, he took off.
Just took off and never came back.
You know, he was a coId, mean-tempered bastard, but he was stiII my oId man.
And now I can't stop wishing that I'd never Iaid a hand on him.
That we somehow couId've worked it through.
[AIex strains]
What is it?
Sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt you.
What? What does Burke want?
I'm sorry, Scott. He needs a decision now.
[Scott pounds fist]
When wouId it happen?
We wouId take Scotty to pre-op immediateIy.
The transpIant surgeon is on caII and waiting. There isn't much time.
Scotty?
[pounding continues]
Scotty.
[sighs]
[sobs]
Yeah. OK. I want to do it.
- Let's get him to pre-op. - But I have a coupIe of conditions.
You're going teII the cops the truth about what happened in this accident.
And as soon as we get back home, you and I are moving out.
Enough is enough.
[Burke] 1 8-year-oId maIe, Iiver donor, no maIignancy or transmittabIe diseases.
ETA about ten minutes.
You know she's going to go back to him.
- I don't know that. And it's not my... - This is not our caII.
WeII, Cristina...
I was wondering,... I mean, I was hoping that we can...
- I know we didn't... - You're asking me...
Are you OK?
Can I scrub in?
[sighs]
Then, yes, Dr. Burke. I'm OK.
Karev. Let's get him to pre-op.
[Derek] You see the tumor on her brain stem here?
Looks pretty bad.
You ever had a crappy day, O'MaIIey? I mean, reaIIy, reaIIy crappy.
I've had many crappy days.
This one just got better. You shouId go home, gentIemen.
I wiII be the onIy one of us performing surgery today.
My friend here has a viabIe brain.
OK.
Do you reaIIy think she'II be OK?
I get the tumor out, she's got a good shot of recovery.
Look out for her.
Meredith?
Yeah.
[pager beeps]
[OIivia] Oh.
Um...
- Is it the famiIy of the dead guy? - Yeah.
[distant siren]
Look. Maybe I'm not over the AIex thing or the syph thing yet.
That's not reaIIy the probIem.
There's a girI who I...
And it doesn't matter that there's this other guy.
And, frankIy, I wouIdn't care if she gave me the EboIa virus.
I Iike you, OIivia.
But... I just don't Iike you enough.
I gave it a shot, right?
And you were honest.
That's good.
You know what you're going to teII them?
Why do we hump on every dead or dying patient that comes through those doors?
Experience?
So we can teII their famiIy that we did everything we couId.
Are you Ted's famiIy?
[elevator bell]
- Just when the day was improving. - You toId Meredith what happened?
I did. What did you teII her?
PeopIe do desperate things to attract attention.
What? Wow. That's your side of this? That I didn't pay you enough attention?
You thought that when you got naked with my friend?
No. By that point, I wasn't thinking at aII.
I was just scratching an itch.
We got successfuI, you and me. We got busy and we got Iazy.
We didn't even bother to fight anymore.
And Mark was there, and I missed you.
And now I'm sorry. I'm more sorry than you can possibIy imagine,
but at Ieast I'm taIking to you about it. Derek...
I'm a sink with an open drain, Addie.
- Did you get them aII? - Yes.
It wasn't easy or very pIeasant.
How do you feeI?
Empty. I feeI empty now.
Yeah, I've been feeIing a IittIe bit of that myseIf IateIy.
I couId see that.
Mr. HubbIe. Why does eating doII heads fiII you up? What's the satisfaction?
Do you reaIIy want to know?
WouId it be too much information?
It might.
Maybe I'm better Ieft in the dark.
[Meredith] There's something to be said about a glass half full.
[# Brandi CarIiIe: What Can I Say]
[Meredith] About knowing when to say ''when. ''
I think it's a floating line.
A barometer of need and desire.
It's entirely up to the individual...
and depends on what's being poured.
Sometimes, all we want is a taste.
Other times, there's no such thing as enough.
The glass is bottomless.
And all we want...
is more.